Well, it's a beautiful evening here and no doubt that their after-work group will most likely be on the outdoor patio area at the bar they go to. I'm going to open a beer and enjoy the silence here before deciding what to do for dinner. I already planned on heading over a buddy's place later on so just need to bide time till then.
Peak - I suppose she does have the best of both worlds. We've already talked about this weekend - not so much about sex but about doing some outdoorsy stuff (which usually precedes good sex!!). I know I am enjoying this journey.
In sitting here right now, I guess it is a little weird that I don't really feel jealous or concern that she'll be with him again tonight. I was thinking back in my life to earlier relationships and in comparison - wow - I'd have never been able to deal with this. So maybe it is this harmonic thing Peak mentions. I trust her - I trust her to value what we have together and to understand herself. She's mentioned it before and I suppose it bears true now, she's long said she knows what she's feeling - I suppose that came to light after Brad and I think it surprised her when she recognized it. But she's shown me first with Don, then Frank and now Robert, that I can trust her in the way that I need to for us to both feel comfortable.
I can say it clearly that I know she's going to have sex with him tonight - probably multiple times. I know, I "should" be cringing at that thought but instead - I find it erotic and arousing. I know it to be true. I know that one of the reasons I was attracted to her at the beginning was knowing she'd slept around a bit - knowing that she'd let many other guys fuck her. And now - to have it happen the way it is - it's something that seems to touch at the core of my desire for her.
I suppose, if we'd had a really rocky patch - and I know I was concerned at times when Don was in the picture, that maybe I'd have a different attitude now. But it didn't and we are now, years later, enjoying what's happened and what's happening. And in this sense, damn, I love being a cuckold.
Far2 - you asked about her next lover. I am sure she has a certain type of guy in her mind now. To me she is far more responsive and alive with Robert than she was, except for a few short periods, with Frank. So I wouldn't say that she's so much looking for someone with a dominant streak as much as she's looking for someone who is more aggressive sexually. But you are correct - she's obviously turned on by more well endowed guys - so that would probably be a criteria for her. And I think that's what I see in how she felt about Don - that she liked his aggressiveness, but I don't believe she enjoys or desires any of the more sterotypical cuckold stuff. I see much more arousal in her by her own desires being manifested. As far as a black guy as a possibility - I wouldn't say no, but I also don't see how it would happen given our social-circles and community - maybe if it were a black guy from work or some work-related thing, that's a possibility - but again, not sure how it would happen unless he approached her. She's admitted she's curious (another thing she's accepting as her own desire and able to share it) but that's really all - not like it's some sort of intense desire or need on her part. I think it'd be interesting - and I will add that perhaps the differences in the social-aspects of both of them would possibly present some sort of natural boundary to contain the relationship. I can't see Sue falling for or running off with a black guy no matter what would happen - sorry, not a prejudicial or bigoted statement, just more that if it were unlikely with a white guy, it'd be even more unlikely.
To Cleaner's question - I think the answer to you would be to say that lesser-endowed guys would surely hold less interest with her.
For Dana's question - I suppose the situation would stay as-is until one of them tired of it. I do think it may be getting a "bit old" for Sue as she seems to not show the same sort of enthusiasm about it as she has in the past - or that could be because of how we're sharing it all now and that is bring us more pleasure compared to before? I cant' say for sure but I do feel that there's been a change - as others pointed out - since we came back from vacation. I'm not complaining - I love where we are right now and in fact, far prefer using condoms with her to outright denial - quite an unexpected turn-on for me which seems to fulfill many of my own desires - just as she said it - a different kind of denial. I do know that as the holidays approach, that things will become more difficult for them both so that will also be something that will perhaps influence things. Time will tell.
So - it's now 6:30 or so and I'm sure in another 2 hours or so my little wifey will be once again spreading her legs for her lover. I do find it incredibly erotic to think about. Her lying back and sharing herself with someone who I've never met. Kind of a turn-on to think "maybe I do know him" and that someone I see could be fucking the shit out of her. But that's unlikely. Still - it is very arousing to not know who is fucking her - to only know him by the semen he's left in her. Crazy. But I'd better click submit before my brain gets carried away - right now hunger is keeping my arousal at bay.
GTR
you know she would like to try that!
