Will - don't get me wrong - I am recognizing what you have said. I do want to let her experience this, wherever it leads. I am most definitely NOT sorry it's led here - as I'm sure I've had a role in leading it here versus another direction. I think I've always known how I'd hoped this would go and this is very close to what I believe I'd wanted - I can't explain it but it feels incredible that it is happening this way.
You've actually given me a new thought for a moment that I imagine this could have gone in many other directions had I not said/done what I have. If Sue's arousal this is the result of what's gone on - a part of me wonders that if perhaps I'd pushed her to go more for anonymous one-night-stands all along, whether that would be what she'd find arousing right now? Or more likely and as I am obviously hoping (and as you and others are saying) that we've grown together.
After I'd cum that second time and she'd calmed down she was quiet for a bit but then she seemed to take on a new attitude in a way and she didn't hide that she'd orgasmed to what had happened - she looked at me and said "that turned me on". I smiled and told her I knew and that she looked beautiful with her eyes closed.
She held my hand again and rolled to her side and looked at me - glancing down at the puddles of cum on my stomach and then back at my face - she started talking and said that it turned her on that she - being my wife, would be all Frank's - and she again emphasized that "he'll be the only one cumming in me". She again said that it wasn't that she didn't love me or want me or anything, but that the idea that she'll be his "exclusively" is something that just turns her on - and she looked at me and said "isn't that what turns you on too? Isn't that what's behind you liking my wearing panties all week?" It was my turn to squeeze her hand and I took a breath and said as calmly as I could "yes, I don't know why either, but it does".
Well, my response to her must have been what she wanted to hear because she then said "you know, I've been thinking" as she started to collect together my cum. I breathed in sharply and she looked up at me and said "relax, I won't ever hurt you" and I said "I know" and she went back to pushing my cum together and said "I've been thinking that maybe we should do more of what we used to do when I was seeing Don?". I guess I must have moaned a bit before I said "what do you mean?" but I already knew what she was going to say - and I swear my cock started to even throb (or at least it felt like it was) when she said (and she was doing that thing where she's talking more to my cock than me) and she picked it up with her fingers and said "maybe we'll just have to have you wait a little longer for me sometimes?" and she teased my cock, pulling gently at it. She kissed the tip of it and then turned up to look at my face. "Well, would you like that sometimes?"
I know I should have been speechless - but instead, I can't explain it but at that moment, I would have bared my soul to her - I just felt so safe from how she sounded that I simply said "Is it something YOU want?" and I emphasized the word 'you'. She smiled and moved up to give me a kiss, even to the point of holding my cheek as she did so (with the hand that had my cum on her fingers) and looked at me up close and said "Yes" and she kissed me again. When she pulled back she said again something to the effect of "... I'll never hurt you..." but she used some other word(s) and then she said "but it's something that I think I've been scared to accept that I'd want" she waited a second and she said "it's weird to be turned on by you not cumming in me". She kissed me again before I could say anything and then went back to collecting up my cum and like a second later she was saying "now open up and help me here" and she fed me a finger-full of cum.
She lay back next to me with both of us staring upwards after she'd finished getting me cleaned up. Then as we both lay there - it was kind of eerily quiet for a moment until she said upwards towards the ceiling "did you feel weird when you first knew you felt this?" I held her hand while I still looked up too and said "I still feel weird" and that made her laugh which kind of broke the tension. She rolled on one side and started just blabbing for a few minutes. She said how lucky she felt to have someone like me - not only who would allow her this kind of freedom but who would have gotten it all started. She said how she hasn't reallly felt this way sexually in a long time - it seemed almost normal for me to say back to her something like "not since just before we met" and she smiled at me and said "you did always say that my past had turned you on, I think I see why" and then a moment later she said "I guess I did go through a lot of guys back then". I asked her how she felt about it "It seemed like you enjoyed yourself a lot back then..." and I paused for a bit and then said "... I had heard about you". She punched my arm and got playfully hissy and said "what did you hear?" and I opened up and told her "... I thought I told you but the guys all liked that you were easy..." and quickly added "... but that was how it was back then". She smiled and laughed a bit and agreed.
So, like I said, I felt good, in this safe place with her at the time and I said "it turned me on way back then that you were on the pill" - and she picked right up on what I was saying and countered "you liked that I let them all cum in me.... Isn't that right?". I smiled a little and said "yeah". She smiled back and again playfully pushed at me and said "so - you were kinky back then?" and she laughed.
We kissed for a moment and then she said to me "So? I was serious you know". I said "what do you mean?" and she said "you know, making you wait longer for me sometimes.".
I knew what I was going to hear. I knew that SHE was going to tell ME that she wanted me to not have sex with her before she was going with Frank. I think I heard it in my head before she spoke it. And sure enough, a second later she said "I think after next week, you may have to wait till after I get back ...." she kissed me and then said "... what do you think about that?".
Now how much more evidence can there be that I am definitely a cuck when I say that when I, with a little hesitance, said "okay, yeah, we can try that" that she looked down at my cock and it was pretty firmed up already even after just having jerked-off twice. I think I should nickname my cock "L.D." as in lie-detector! She looked up towards me and said "it feels good that we can talk more openly about this" and a second later "I can see you're more relaxed about it too" and she held my hand and said "it's okay - it's going to be okay - it'll be good and even fun for us" and a split second after as if she clearly had meant to say it she added "I promise, you just say so if it's not". She leaned up and gave me a kiss and then she seemed to sit back on the bed indian-style and here's again where I think Will has it right - she seemed to have this aire of triumph or success as she leaned over and picked up my cock and started stroking it for me - a second later she guided my right hand back into place and then said "let me see some more of the cum that won't be going in me". It was the way she said it that got me even more aroused. And with a bit more teasing from her, I was somehow very close to cumming again. She leaned over and this time held my balls gently and said "these don't feel so heavy now" and then a moment later she said "it turns me on that you'll do this for me knowing that when I want sex tomorrow I have to turn to Frank". My hand was moving faster and faster and as I said, amazingly I felt another load brewing - I knew it wasn't going to be big - but I knew it was going to feel great to let it go. She leaned down towards my head and started whispering sexy stuff - but when she said "mmmm, are you still going to clean me up tomorow if we don't have sex on Friday?". Oh my god - the way she said it was just so incredibly sexy that a stroke or two later she brought forth my third and most definitely, final orgasm for the night. It felt huge and deep as I felt my nuts contract and my muscles tense up in waves. Unfortunately, the reality is that there was pretty much just one big thick dribble of cum that ran down my cock onto my hand and wrist.
I know it may seem anticlimactic - but as I came I also knew that it was going to signal an end to last night's fun - Sue moaned gently sharing the moment of pleasure with me and then kissed me and said she was going to get washed up and that I should follow her when I'd "regained my senses". A few minutes later I walked naked into the bathroom and started getting washed while she stood there in her t-shirt and panties brushing her teeth. She gently patted my now very deflated cock and after she rinsed she kissed me and said "I was thinking of next Friday you know - I have plans for you this weekend".
I didn't question it and we didn't talk at all this morning. I am expecting her home anytime now and some how - maybe even strangely - after writing all of that - I feel kind of calm about it all. I guess as if a weight has been lifted, or, more likely, that my nuts are well drained and that's making me relaxed about it. I suppose in a way, I'm definitely aroused - I guess you don't need a hard-on to be aroused - as even without one, the thought of going down on Sue is a turn-on.
