My wife and i have been involved in this lifestyle for quite a while. We took a break from it for about the past 5 years and have recently started up again. In the past month she has met with 2 men and had sex with them while i was present. In the past we have only had one time meetings and then moved on. Now we have been thinking that it would be more comfortable (for her) and more exciting (for me) for her to have a full-time boyfriend that she can see and "date" once a week. Currently we have ads on AFF and AM looking for the same. She is now speaking to a few potential on the phone and has set up a meeting with 1 in the near future. This new "boyfriend" idea makes it unlikely that I will be attending the "dates" which excites me as much as it makes me nervous. She has always told me that she does this for me and that whenever i say stop she will. I have encouraged her to select potential partners that she is attracted to because the more she enjoys it the more it excites me. The plan is for her to date someone and come home and share the details with me. I really enjoy watching the events but find not being there somehow even more exciting - fear of the unknown i guess.
Although exciting, i can't help but feel a little scared of the idea of her consistently dating another man and the relationship that may form between them. In the same vein, I find that risk strangely hot. Its that sweet sweet mind fuck pain that i seem to enjoy. We have been together for over 15 years and have children so i believe in my rational mind that the risk of her leaving me is quite low but my irrational maid is going crazy! She has no problem with me reading all of the correspondence she has with these males and advised me that she believes that she will have to "date" a few of them at first until she finds the "boyfriend" that will give her what she is looking for.
She is fantastic, kind, with a beautiful face and stunning porn star body. Any man would be lucky to have her. (i guess that's what drives my fear and excitement). She it truly my best friend and I am hers. I know i really want this to happen, i just don't know if or for how long i will be able to tolerate it.
We have made a plan that for the next 6 weeks will date as freely as she feels like with no objections from me. (we do have a safety word that can pull the plug if necessary). She always told me to be careful of what i wished for and now she seems very intent on giving me what i have been craving. At the end of the 6 weeks we will re-evaluate the situation and see how we both feel. This is so exciting as well as terrifying at the same time - I love it and hate it all at the same time! Part of me wants her to have sex with the world and part of me does not.
I do not consider myself a true cuckold. I Like to share her and see her in action, but i want to continue to have sex with her. I am not interested in becoming the maid and servicing her bull. I just love the mind fuck of this adventure, but this new component of her dating on her own is driving me crazy! (in a good way....no in a bad way....no in a good way...in don't know)
I would love to hear some feed back and or opinions about my situation. Potential risks/problems, things that seem to be done right/wrong etc. Let me know my ears are open!. Here are a couple of her - yes she is a HOTWIFE!
Although exciting, i can't help but feel a little scared of the idea of her consistently dating another man and the relationship that may form between them. In the same vein, I find that risk strangely hot. Its that sweet sweet mind fuck pain that i seem to enjoy. We have been together for over 15 years and have children so i believe in my rational mind that the risk of her leaving me is quite low but my irrational maid is going crazy! She has no problem with me reading all of the correspondence she has with these males and advised me that she believes that she will have to "date" a few of them at first until she finds the "boyfriend" that will give her what she is looking for.
She is fantastic, kind, with a beautiful face and stunning porn star body. Any man would be lucky to have her. (i guess that's what drives my fear and excitement). She it truly my best friend and I am hers. I know i really want this to happen, i just don't know if or for how long i will be able to tolerate it.
We have made a plan that for the next 6 weeks will date as freely as she feels like with no objections from me. (we do have a safety word that can pull the plug if necessary). She always told me to be careful of what i wished for and now she seems very intent on giving me what i have been craving. At the end of the 6 weeks we will re-evaluate the situation and see how we both feel. This is so exciting as well as terrifying at the same time - I love it and hate it all at the same time! Part of me wants her to have sex with the world and part of me does not.
I do not consider myself a true cuckold. I Like to share her and see her in action, but i want to continue to have sex with her. I am not interested in becoming the maid and servicing her bull. I just love the mind fuck of this adventure, but this new component of her dating on her own is driving me crazy! (in a good way....no in a bad way....no in a good way...in don't know)
I would love to hear some feed back and or opinions about my situation. Potential risks/problems, things that seem to be done right/wrong etc. Let me know my ears are open!. Here are a couple of her - yes she is a HOTWIFE!
