Amazingly, both kids just left for the rest of the afternoon including both of them saying "do we have to be home for dinner?" - so I have the house to myself until Sue gets home and then we will have our time, finally.
Joecondon - to be honest about last night - I knew from when we'd first talked about her going back to Don's the next day that she wouldn't want any sexual contact with me in between. If I remember right, she wanted it to feel as if it were just an extension of the night before only without the overnight sleepover. I do sort of understand that and for as difficult as it may have been to be okay with last night, I also did know what she wanted - and I guess, in the circumstances, what she wanted to give to Don. So despite my desires to be with her in any way, including even "cleaning her up", I knew that she'd not want it.
It's okay. I was kind of down earlier this morning after she left - watching her pull out of the driveway in the rain, knowing she was going back to him. In the bathroom her clothes were there in the hamper including both pairs of panties. I'd be lying if I didn't say I got hard looking at them knowing it's their cum that was "crusty" in the crotch.
Also, as I looked back - I can see why Joecondon was confused, Sue's reference to "the last time", I am pretty sure, was related to the hickies he'd left on her again. As I said, Sue's never been fond of them - once, maybe twice when we were starting out I'd given some to her and she always hated them. I do wonder if that may have been part of Don's mentally reclaiming her and "marking" her for others to see - regardless of who - me or Brad, etc.
It's about 1:15pm now so maybe 2 more hours till she's home and then, finally, we can reconnect. I can say that despite my whatever feelings, that I am definitely turned on by what she's doing. I know it must be something she wants, not just Don, for her to get up and get out in this weather. There's something about knowing she wants to fuck him again - even if it's something she wants just to make him feel better.
For me to be as content as I feel right now, it really lets me know I am happy with my place as a cuckold. As others here probably know from wherever they found their comfort in their relationships - when you are as content and eager for her return as I feel right now, to me, it says that I truly am a cuckold. I've encouraged Sue to explore and accept her sexual desires and it really does feel great. And right now, I'm focused on having the house to ourselves, maybe lighting some candles in the bedroom and having a cozy rainy afternoon fuck.
Regarding Joe's last paragraph - there's no concern there, she already knows that despite my reluctance/apprehension of the situation, that when she did leave, the goodbye kiss we shared - at least I think - foretold of what the two of us will want when she gets home and her knowledge and evidence of my perpetual hard-on at what she's doing has already told her that I am enjoying it and that I certainly WILL enjoy it even more when she returns.
I guess I'm content that she "chose" to go back and see him today as opposed to the other possibilities she had to give him something special. I'd actually say that this is far easier than in the past when she's gone straight to him after her period ended. And I've even considered how I'd feel if she were to want to give him more - be it today as an example, or something else. I really do think that if she were to ask me honestly, that within limits (as in nothing forever, permanent or un-do-able) that I probably would say okay. In my heart I want her to do it - I want to feel the emotions of her wanting someone else, even to further exclusion of me if that's what she wants. I can't explain it but it turns me on to no end. But, isn't that all part of being a cuckold? However, as someone else said in another thread here, just because it's a turn-on, doesn't mean you want it all the time.
Bye for now.
