Hey all,
It's a Wednesday and we've returned to our pattern - after a rousing night last night, the panties re-appeared this morning. I knew it was coming as last night she'd more than teased me that she'll be with her "other lover" later this week. This was something we'd talked about, at one point I had told her that it was hot that she'd be fucking three different guys this week. I'm seeing that as something she does - using stuff that turned me/us on again. Sorry, I digress... (I do find it relaxing to write/post here). But as it's a Wednesday, Sue has gone to bed already and I will have some fun after I complete this post.
She wouldn't share much in specific details of her time with Brad. I sort of didn't expect her to, and to be honest, I think if she shared how emotional she probably felt with him, I might not like to hear it even though I do know how they were. She did say that she felt like she was his for the night and she also said that she seems to be able to slip out of her mom/wife role more easily. She saw my reaction and she said that it doesn't mean anything about us. I don't recall exactly how it was said though, there was more to it than just that but I understood what she was saying and I told her something being okay with it as long as it stays under control and I know to that she replied that I will "always be hers".
I knew this was going to happen sooner or later, that she would be able to slip into being "his girlfriend" - be it Brad, Don or whoever may be in the future. It's a very intense feeling - to know you are letting go of her for that period of time.
She did share that they, as she put it, "fucked a lot". I told her it must have been good and she said that she felt very fulfilled and at one point last night she said that she felt very natural and very much at ease with Brad even after not being together for so long. I told her that I am sure he felt the same way about her as she did about him "you shared a lot with him" and I told her that I knew that he would be the same as she'd said she'd be about her boyfriend that was her first sex partner. She giggled and couldn't believe that I'd remembered what she'd said about him - that she would probably always have a sweet spot for him and she had admitted that she probably wouldn't be able to resist if he wanted her again. I know that's how she is, that's what I knew when we first got together - she'd fuck you if she really felt like there was a future and that she liked you.
But getting back to where we were, she kept it going for a bit in our foreplay and her teasing about having to "cover up after tonight" or "being his" for the rest of the week. It wasn't until a sweaty climax for both of us that as we lay there I asked her what she was going to tell Don? She told me she wasn't going to bring it up but if he asked she said she was going to tell him and answer whatever he asked. This was like a calm, lying-on-the-bed-catching-your-breath conversation, so I just told her that she may not want to be quite so honest with him. She turned to look at me as if to ask me what I meant and I just said (and I'm laughing thinking about now) "I don't think he's going to want to hear how much Brad fucked you or came in you" - and I just said it so calmly - it was weird but we'd just had this pretty intense physical fuck that it just felt comfortable. She half-giggled back and just said "duh". I kind of realized I'd been pretty blunt and I added that I meant I didn't think she should play up how strongly she felt about Brad and to that she asked what I meant and I just said that Don might not like knowing she was so able to just go back with Brad, kind of suggesting that she might want to make him think she might even have regretted it.
It sounds crazy now, me giving my wife pointers on how to handle her boyfriend?! But like I said, sometimes in that afterglow moment you can just talk. The thing about it was she seemed like she was in the same place - and it had to feel the same way to her - her asking me?! Maybe I'll bring it up with her one day.
Anyway - since I know people here want to know, she fucked Brad a lot. Between Sunday and last night she shared that at times he was "in her" while they weren't even fucking - at one point last night she told me they'd watched some TV like that! I know she must have felt my cock double in size at that comment! She said she'd forgotten how gentle he could be at times and how "wonderful he is with his tongue". Now that was an intense moment - hearing her tell me how good he is at licking and eating her pussy. She told me she didn't know how many times they'd fucked - but she did say that he didn't cum every time which totally sent my mind in a million directions. I can tell you that from how she felt when I finally had my time with her on Sunday that she had been quite active. Her whole pussy was gently swollen, not inflamed at all, but engorged might be the better word. Her lips parted with the slightest stimulation. I can't begin to explain how intensely arousing it was to watch her arousal build and see her pull her knees back letting me see where Brad had been in her. Something about seeing the glistening wetness just inside her vagina, knowing there was more inside her - from him. It sounds crazy but the thought of her orgasming on his cock - her taking him inside her and then seeing her arching her back as she would cum under him. I pulled her open more and saw inside her - a thin creamy liquid was still in her. I put my finger in her and could feel what was still there from their time earlier.
I would say that perhaps that is a defining moment of being a cuckold - to feel another mans cum in your wife's vagina and for you to respond like I did - with fiercely intense arousal. Even now when I say it to myself or write it here - that it still sounds crazy that I like that my wife fucks other guys. But I do. Knowing she gave all of herself to Brad - it feels good to me to know she did it because she wanted to. I fuck her all the time - I know how it feels, I know that closeness and intimacy. I still feel it every time - but it is such a turn on to know that another man has felt it too. She wouldn't say yes or no so I didn't ask, but it wouldn't surprise me if he'd cum in her at least 4 times. I also remembered that she'd many times let Brad fuck her a second or third time when they were together even if it'd take a long time or he'd barely cum - what I remembered was that she loved giving herself to him to let him feel that with her. It actually made me smile as I too enjoy that with her when we're alone or able to get away - something about "squeezing that last one" out - and I knew from how we would feel afterwards, that she also felt that with Brad - as she'd explained it - she just gives herself to us and lets us do what we want to or need to in order to get off that last time. She said it makes her feel very special to do that for him.
Anyway - I think I've written enough. We are back in our weekly routine now and I joked with Sue that it'd better not snow this week like last week or poor Don may have to wait even longer!
To answer ZHershey - no, I don't take Viagra. To be honest, I did feel a bit sluggish a few months ago but just over 2 months ago I put myself on some new vitamins from Vitamin Shoppe called "Especially Men" as well as some other supplements and I have to say that I do think they've had an effect. That, plus I - actually we - do exercise usually 4-5 days a week. We've got an imitation Bowflex type machine, a nice recumbent stationary exercise bike and, don't laugh, a Wii. I do believe exercise has a positive effect on sex-drive - I think we are both evidence of that.